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... and you were lying beside me,
neither one of us naked. I proved
an even bigger disappointment than
I was all those years ago.
Too needy. Over optimistic.
Fatally impatient.
... seems you wanted what I never was.
... I imagined what you never were.
And we had wound up there,
the room already paid for.
The wine already drunk.
The only fireworks, hours ago
exploded over the ocean...
Lying tense and silent.
You could not wait for the drive back.
I was wishing we had a television.